One of lifes hardest decisions…
Savanah wasn’t just a dog, she was a member of the family. She was my baby, my companion, my best friend, my partner in crime and my soul mate.
Just over two weeks ago, I had to say goodbye to her and I feel as if I have lost a part of myself. Each and every moment at home leaves me paralyzed with pain, sadness and longing to see and pat her just one more time.
Although my family and I made the decision out of love to ease her pain and let her go, a small selfish part of me wishes I could have held onto her longer… just long enough for one more cuddle, one more stroll along the beach and one more night where I could watch her sleep peacefully between puppy dreams.
While trying to find the answer to the agonizing decision we had to make, I found this beautiful poem online which helped me accept what needed to be done.
IF IT SHOULD BE
If it should be that I grow weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle cannot be won.
You will be sad, I understand.
Don’t let your grief then stay your hand.
For this day, more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.
We’ve had so many happy years.
What is to come can hold no fears.
You’d not want me to suffer so;
The time has come — please let me go.
Take me where my need they’ll tend,
And please stay with me till the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me,
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time that you will see
The kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I’ve been saved.
Please do not grieve — it must be you
Who had this painful thing to do.
We’ve been so close, we two, these years;
Don’t let your heart hold back its tears.
—- Anonymous —-
Like with most things, only time will heal my hurt. Sav will forever hold a special place in my heart and the memories I have of her will never fade. Goodbye my precious girl, run free. I love you!!